December 2010
the story ends.
i wonder if you ever say to yourself, 'can't you...
'what the fuck do you want?'
to be your friend, to not have to “insert” myself into situations. to be remembered, to have you actually know what goes through my head without me telling you. for you to understand that when you’re gone i’m not going to have anyone or anything, that when you’re gone the only thing i’m going to do is, wait for you to call or text me, to wait for you to tell me...
find out your best friend is moving to cali. and lose all of you’re plans for when you get out of high school, now you’re in my shoes.
i can't fucking take this.
i’m sick of myself, i can’t even think that you’re both leaving and now i’m going to have nothing. it’s selfish of me to say, i hope you both do great in cali. i don’t know what i’m going to do when you’re gone. i’m mad at myself, knowing this is one of the last times i will see you, and all i could do was sit there, but not being invited in...
blua:
Who wants to be my New Years kiss?
want to me make happier than ever?
show up at my house early in the morning and jump on me to let me know that you’re there, and instead of getting up right away just lay there and cuddle with me. Smoke weed with me and talk about things that scare us and things we don’t understand. Make breakfast with me. Go for a walk with me. Come home for hot tea and more weed, then talk more....
fake players are the ones who play the game.
makes me wish that I was never brought into this...
i'm too predictable.
i’m upset i can’t go see my best friend on christmas eve, especially when he asked me to hangout and i had to tell him i could not. oh, i hate the holidays.
❒ single ❒ taken ✔ no one likes me.
i do not know right from wrong anymore, my world has changed and not by my own doing, to cope with these things, i would ask you to tell me what your views are, but the way we’ve been acting makes me think you think i’m being annoying right now, and it’s how i feel i am being, i’m sorry if i annoy and i’m sorry i apologize after everything i do or say, but it’s...
unless i live in a world were good things actually...
2 words, one action - cock dance.
i thought things were going to be okay in this...
somethings i keep to myself...
i told you, ‘i don’t think of you as my best friend, because i feel like my views on what a best friend is have changed, and you no longer fit under that category.’ well, i think the only reason i said that was because you’ve told me that i’m not your best friend repeatedly, but in all seriousness you’re my best friend, my only friend, and i wouldn’t want...
i’ve just been laying in bed all day, not really sleeping more of just staring. all my feelings ever do is get in the way of everything, always. i’m sick of it, i want to be emotionless forever.
i am at a loss for words. i have a million and one things going through my mind and i don’t have the courage to even say one of them. i don’t know why you’re angry with me, i did nothing wrong. absolutely nothing, i don’t understand help me to please. Obviously i did something that made you not say one word to me from eight a.m. i wish you would just tell me.
i will never die.
it seems like everytime i hangout with you, i have to have a deep talk with you about how i’m feeling. i’m a deep person, but i don’t think it should be this common.
all the things i said, what were they really...
The end of paralysis, I was a statuette Now I’m drunk as hell on a piano bench And when I press the keys it all gets reversed The sound of loneliness makes me happier.
“I hope they understand that I really understand that they don’t understand.”
– Kid Cudi (via maddiemillis)
failures always sounded better
I have my drugs, I have my woman they keep away my loneliness My parents, they have their religion But sleep in separate houses. No one ever plans to sleep out in the gutter Sometimes thats just the most comfortable place So I’m drinkin’, breathin’, writin’, singin’ Every day I’m on the clock My mind races with all my longings But can’t keep up with what I...
Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself… know what you want.
What you said wasn't what you meant.
it’s so over-rated.
Watch
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I'm going to be okay.
it’s weird ‘cause stuff happens and you don’t really notice it while it’s happening, life is sort of passing by.
it's friday night
and i have yet to be hit up by any of my friends, how lame.
I love that you've got me all figured out
Because without a doubt You’re the best damn thing that ever happened to me.
until i stop smoking, i’m going to just start buying bags for myself and not sharing it or hit people up to ask them if they want to smoke. because, i’ve realized no one just buys weed and hits me up and says, “hey come over and smoke,” instead it’s more of “hey do you have five on it?” i don’t think i’ve ever called someone and asked them that...
i'm all talk, i can't even act like i'm callin'...
Listen
don’t trust a thing i say, i don’t really mean it. Almost everything that comes out of my mouth isn’t me talking, it’s the person i’m trying to be - to get you to like me. I love to be loved, and i hate to be hated. I’m sorry.
i wish you would tell me some of the things i do are cute, because i really try to be.
i would have enjoyed today so much more if you were still here when i walked home. i’ve been thinking that i’m going stop talking as much now, i have got myself in the habit of not shutting up and i’m starting to despise myself for it.
Well I’m just a boy with a hole in my heart, and I swear the world turns if it all falls apart. Tonight let’s play with hearts Like the sand in our hands, I’ll say I’m sorry, but I don’t feel sorry for you.
carry me home tonight.
i love you
just thought i would say it, seeing as how i haven’t told anyone that i love them in awhile, but maybe i should start again.